The CEO of PSC knew that I was afraid of connecting with people or talking to anybody. She introduced some Christians to me, and then I started to go to church with them. I was surprised when I arrived there the first time; there were many people already in the church before the service started at 9 o’clock on Sunday morning, and it was really special. They would hug each other as a greeting. I felt awkward because in my previous environment, I never came in contact with people like this. But, I gradually got used to it and even started enjoying the hugs. Knowing Jesus changed my life. I had my happiness back, and I was more optimistic. I made new friends and got to know many good people in church. Thank God. I am so grateful for all the help from PSC and at church from people who love me.
During my pregnancy, PSC staff would pray for me (this was most important), provide for my practical needs, give me counseling, and helped us with inner healing. Their support and care was never ending.
The Lord sees your work and will remember it. Thank you, Father.
Today, Hanhan and I thank God for His grace. God has helped me so much. If it weren’t for His grace, we would not have come in contact with such a wonderful organization. Hanhan and I will always remember God’s grace. Amen!
I made an appointment at the recommended clinic and also searched online for an English provider. That’s when I found PSC and learned that they don’t provide medical services but they did provide counseling services and assistance for women in their time of need. I was desperately needing to speak to someone, so I contacted them.
The most helpful thing I was told during the hour-long conversation was to give myself a week to feel all the emotions and think all the thoughts that come to mind before I make a permanent decision.
I still went to my scheduled appointment just to see if an abortion was an option, but I was denied once again and given yet another business card to a different clinic. I called and spoke to the 3rd doctor. He would perform the abortion but I felt very uncomfortable with our brief phone conversation. I had to stop, be still and acknowledge all that had happened and all my feelings.
When my mind was set on having an abortion I was denied twice. Now that time had passed and I finally found a doctor who would do the procedure I felt uncomfortable. Digging even deeper, I knew that having an abortion would emotionally destroy me but I managed to suppress that thought in the beginning with my anger.
Giving myself time to think and acknowledge my feelings, I was finally willing to connect with the most important force in my life, God. Ultimately, I decided to keep my baby.
After the decision, the first two months I still had some negative feelings about being pregnant but I knew it was important for me to feel them completely so I could wholeheartedly be at peace and joyful in the near future.
Now, I am absolutely happy with my decision to keep my baby and I’m extremely grateful that I was continuously denied abortions from the different providers. I truly feel as if God protected me from destroying myself and this little human growing in me that I love so much. My family and I can’t wait to meet her.
I finally decided to tell my parents about my pregnancy. I imagined them being angry and disappointed but their reactions are so precious, I didn’t expect they would be happy that I am having a child. I apologized at them for not choosing the right man to be the father of my child and they told me that’s not my fault. They also assure me that they can support me on my pregnancy journey and do not worry much about raising the child on my own. They said I am not alone. They will be there at my side. They even encourages me to go home as quick as I can so they can take care of me. I am so grateful for having institution like PSC, for helping confused pregnant women, for offering their guidance and counseling. Above all, I thank the Lord. I knew He never leaves my side, He allows things to happen because His plans is better than my plans.
Childbirth, it hurts.
Seeing your child crying, hurts.
Not sleeping well, it hurts.
Having a very difficult day and without rest, hurts.
Not having time for you, it hurts.
Motherhood is not as tender as it seems to be, motherhood is beautiful, yes, but it is very difficult. What is beautiful is the love that a mother feels for her daughter, that love is capable of supporting everything !! ️ ️
NOBODY IS BORN BEING A MOTHER, ONE BECOMES A MOTHER.
I take a shower, I look in the mirror and see I’m not the same.
I looked exhausted, I feel tired, my chest hurts, and I have a new scar. Being a mom is not easy at all. A baby needs diapers changed, fed, put to sleep, but most of all it needs all the love in the world. Sometimes you feel like giving up, but when you get out of the shower and you see how small, how defenseless, and how Perfect she is, something in your head changes and says; don’t worry you’re doing an excellent job.
Everything will pass. BREATHE.
Before I got pregnant I didn’t think much about having kids. I knew I always wanted kids but I wasn’t one of those people who dreamed only of having children. But when it comes to this life inside of me, I didn’t have to wager a guess. I knew that in a couple of months, I will begin to feel the baby move. I experienced my body shifting and changing as it makes room for this coming gift. And in what seems now to be the distant past, at some point I felt my body prepare to welcome this child into the world. There’s really a new life inside of me. And this changes everything. I needed someone to have confidence for me, because I was drowning in fear. I was always flooded with emotion, every morning and evening I kept praying for the guidance and what action should I take. But God is really amazing. He provide everything. My fear to be alone was washed away- I believed He sent me his Holy Spirit to guide me and strengthen me, His presence in the eucharist (communion), and I’ve experienced the reality of God as Creator through the beauty of His creation. Gloria and the PSC team-They assure me that they can support me on my pregnancy journey and do not worry much about raising the child on my own. They said I am not alone. They will be there at my side.
After I go back to Philippines my boyfriend and I got separated. He didn’t showed even to faced my family. But I’m hoping someday he can be a father to my child even life was so hard. As of now I’m not forcing him what to do.
I am so grateful for having PSC, especially for Gloria, for helping confused pregnant women, for offering their guidance and counseling, and who never left me from the start. Above all, I thank the Lord. He allows things to happen because His plans are better than my plans. I would like to say thank you to PSC and everyone for all the prayers and support for us. I am so grateful to have you all. It’s an honor to be one supported. I’m so glad to be in motherhood and I am continuing to explore and learn.